Contamination
When “clean” never feels clean enough
Washing, wiping, re-washing — and the relief never lasts as long as it used to.
Resources
Start with the loop you're running
Fear takes a different shape in everyone — contamination, harm, faith, existence. The theme changes; the loop underneath doesn't. Find yours below, or read through the archive.
The fear loops
One page per theme — what it looks like from the inside, why the usual strategies backfire, and what actually breaks the cycle.
Harm & violent thoughts
Thoughts you would never act on, that won’t leave you alone
Violent or harmful images about the people you love most — and the horror that follows them.
Sexual intrusive thoughts
The thoughts that feel too shameful to say out loud
Unwanted sexual thoughts that contradict everything you are — and the checking they set off.
Scrupulosity & religious thoughts
When faith turns into something you have to check
Blasphemous thoughts, endless praying, and asking again whether you’re forgiven.
Existential fears
The question isn’t the problem
Questions about death, reality and existence that no answer ever settles.
From the blog
See all 57 postsManaging & Coping vs. Recovery
Coping gets you through the day; recovery changes who you are. The difference between the two — and why your intention decides which one you're actually doing.
What If Anxiety Isn't a 'Disorder'?
What if anxiety isn't something broken to be fixed, but a universal human experience? Why resisting fear is what cements it in place.
Healing Isn't Linear: What That Really Means in Recovery
Recovery isn't a mountain you climb — it's a mountain you put down. Why healing comes in waves and layers, and why that isn't a setback.
Why You Don't Need Certainty
Matt on why no answer ever satisfies fear, and what to do instead of chasing one more piece of reassurance.
You don't have to figure this out alone.
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